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I’m starting to feel a bit better now… which is a very very very good sign…. i dont have very high fevers anymore (which means no more hallucinating..) i dont have to take most of the strong medication i was taking (which means no more sleeping throughout the whole day and night..).. it means being able to start eating again (i was already an anorexic… 4 days without eating anything whatsoever… i almost fainted cuz of that!) … it means i can breathe normally.. i can talk… i can smile (even though all of those still hurt a bit cuz my throat is still swollen….. im not perfect yet, but getting there!)…. soon im gonna be able to go out and considering im single now i can have whoever i want!!!!!!!!!!! woooooooooooooohooooooo ehehhe.. ok ok its not like im gonna go on a guy hunt… i dont wanna do that…. actually i think im gonna stay guy free for some time… (haahhha yeh right!)

i dunno wot else to write… was gonna publish all the funny moments of my trip but with all this sickness and heartbreaking news im not in the mood anymore…. maybe some other day………

im bored….

ughhh

******* I forgot to tell u all.. that from now on my blog is going to be more honest… because now i dont hvae to hide anything from anyone…. Gordo was a bit jealous and didnt like me doing things (like going out to dance clubs.. or seeing my friends.. or talking to anyone from the male species…) so nooow… im gonna write everything i do here….. he cant complain anymore… it wont be anything”bad”… simple things like “i was talking to michell…. or to gabe…” or “i went out with the girls to the mall today………. ” simple things like that, that before could have caused my relationship to end…********

tou jogando Pool na net com o Go.. ehehe its cheering me up a bit…. tou me sentindo melhor

yes….. alex dumped me….

depois de todos esses email ele apareceu online.. dai ele pediu meu telefone de punta e me ligou… and he said those stupid words i hate hearing.. “mais gorda, vc sabe que naum ta dando certo”….. i fuckin know it isnt working out.. it never did between us… we had the most fucked up relationship two people could ever have… but at least i was trying.. he was the only thing i didnt want to let go off, obviously he didnt feel that way….

eu contei q beijei dois caras em ferrugem .. e dai ele me contou q ja beijou varias minas tbm….. em england no comeco.. depois no guaru no reveillon e agora de novo em england…. (ele falou q no guaru ele beijou so uma mina enquanto o franca beijou 8.. e q todos os meninos falava, that that PROVED HE LOVED ME!! how can he, cheating on me, prove that he loves me??)

in a way.. tipo melhor.. sei la… i wont suffer anymore,.. its prob. best for us, i deserve someone better or sumthin (yada yada same old bs they always say on the movies) …. tbm naumd ava certo long distance….

but still.. he was the only guy i ever wanted this bad…. i cant just let go of him like that… tou com uma puta vontade de sair correndo pra england hj (mesmo if it takes me months to get there) e chegar la and kiss him like ive never done it before…. i wanna feel his hands nas minhas costas while he hugs me…. i want to be his and only his,.. and i want him to be mine and only mine……..

eu tou mto. doente and still havent had time tipo to think about it all….. ainda nem chorei por ele……. (well i am right now)….. sei la im soo lost…

ele pediu pra name my son alex….. and give him o tigger q ele me deu de aniversario…. e ele falou q ele nunca loved someone as much as me.. and that im gonna live in his heart forever……

eu tou confused.. i want him… i know he is killing me slowly but i want hiM!!!….

im fine… naum tou chorando desesperadamente like i would normally do, mas tbm eu naum tou bombando…. plus achu q tudo isso afetou meu sickness.. tou pior agora, falam q quando vc fica muito emotional u get worst…

Guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first to cry

I’m not the first to know, there’s just no gettin’ over you

Hello, I’m just a fool who’s willing to sit around and wait for you

But baby can’t you see, there’s nothin’ else for me to do

I’m hopelessly devoted to you

But now there’s nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside

I’m not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying “fool, forget him”, my heart is saying “don’t let go”

Hold on to the end, that’s what I intend to do

I’m hopelessly devoted to you

But now there’s nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside

I’m not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you

Hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you

i was dumped…..

i was dumped???

i was dumped!

what the fuck is going on in this world..

i was dumped… DOESNT ANYBODY CARE?

Which drink are you?

#1 Crush

I would die for you

I would die for you

I’ve been dying just to feel you by my side

To know that you’re mine

I will cry for you

I will cry for you

I will wash away your pain with all my tears

And drown your fear

I will pray for you

I will pray for you

I will sell my soul for something pure and true

Someone like you

See your face every place that I walk in

Hear your voice every time that I’m talking

You will believe in me

And I will never be ignored

I will burn for you

Feel pain for you

I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart

And tear it apart

I will lie for you

Beg and steal for you

I will crawl on hands and knees until you see

You’re just like me

Violate all the love that I’m missing

Throw away all the pain that I’m living

You will believe in me

And I can never be ignored

I would die for you

I would kill for you

I will steal for you

I’d do time for you

I will wait for you

I’d make room for you

I’d sink ships for you

To be close to you

To be part of you

Cause I believe in you

I believe in you

I would die for you

“you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake.

you are the same decaying organic matter as everything else.

we are all a part of the same compost heap, we are the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.

you are not your bank account,

you are not the clothes you wear.

you are not the contents of your wallet.

you are not your bowel cancer.

you are not your Grande Latte.

you are not the car you drive.

you are not your fucking khakis.”

Cara.. tou passando muito mal….

tou com a garganta toda inflamada and i can barely eat anything… tou comendo sorvete e jello o dia inteiro, como se eu tivesse amidalite…. eu tava mo empolgada de voltar pra punta pra poder tomar sol e continuar saindo mas vou ter q ficar dentro de casa… tou tomando 500000 remedios e fico o dia inteiro praticamente durmindo..

ontem vieram as meninas me visitar … foi mo funny ficamos ate tarde lembrando as coisas q aconteceram em Ferrugem….

meu pai ta em cancun hj…. ele me ligou pra ver qq eu keria q ele me comprasse.. ehehe mo fofo… eu pedi um monte de copos (aqueles grossos embaixos, finos no meio e grosso encima) de varias cores, eu ja tenhu varias ideas de como decorate meu room na argentina, uma delas vai ser botar esses copos against a window pra ter o reflection da cor no chao… its hard to explain mas achu q vai ficar legal..(tou procurando fotos na net mas naum tou achando.. tbm naum sei como chama-los.. tipo… LARGE DRINKING GLASSES… sei la)

tou vendo um site muito legal de ums amigos meus…. e muito louka com todos esses pieces of art… sei la.. eu vou comecaar a contribute mas so quando eu for pra casa e use my normal comp por q aki em punta naum tenhu nemnhum desenho nem nada saved..…

vieram me visit wooo