Jun
30
FUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Jun
30
i hate blogger its all fucked up when it comes to posting !!! whyyyy???? it aint supposed to be like this!!
Jun
29
so i said i wanted to post more often becaus ei had shit things to spit out……and im here now, sitting alone in my house with all the lights turned off just thinking… thinking about everything that just happened to me and where i should start to try and heal everything or at leats get them off my chest for a while and i dont know where to start….
im in love with one of the most amazing person i’ve ever met… just when i thought that i had probably met my soulmate and was destined toa predetermined life (tha suited me in a way but then again sometimes bored me) i met him He’s drunk, he tastes like candy he’s so beautiful and we just hitted off….i cant say it was a match made in heaven we are still getting to know each other very slwoly… but our feelings are growing steadily… it scares me a bit that i didnt have time to stop and think from one relationship to the other, but as we are taking it calmly im very very confident about were we are going….. Everyone’s a junkie… and i’m a junkie for your love it’s like i was drawn to this world that i had never been in…. somewhere where im accpeted (so far) as i am… somewhere where people are intersted in what i think and i dont eman peopl my age, i mean parents and older borthers and sisters that look at me not just like a *punkie* but someone with a voice and a mind strong enough to be able to talk … and i am given that space….
and when im with him i feel like screamin take me to the back seat but then again i feel a bit restrained because all my past relationships…. and like i said.. baby steps… but ihave all these feelings inside of me wanting to explode, want to take care of him, want to be his lover, his friend, i want him to protect me, i want to be there when he needs me, i want to laugh i want to cry and want to feel pain and relief….. and i want all of this because i built up a wall infront of me when i felt that he was getting to me and i couldnt, i could not fight him .. he got to me… and i love it
Jun
25
so, im in the middle of finals.. and ir eally dont wanna study… i feel lik i need to write and just let go of everything thats going inside of my head.. i realised that if i hold everything in there and dont tell anyone it really makes me go insane and bothers me like hell… but than again i dont find time to sit down in peace nd just type………..
i dont feeel like writing chit chat.. i have some heavy things to tell…………………………………..
agh
wel im in love
with my new tattoo
and im love
with my car
im in love with mY VERY VERY SHORT HAIR
and i think i might be falling very very hard for my young lustful boy
will come back
Jun
16
Happy Birthday To Me
It’s my birthday and I’ll do what I want to – Fuck you it’s my birthday. – A special holiday only for me, so do what I say, – it’s my party, I’ll make you cry if I want to…or leave. – Fuck you, it’s not your birthday, so do what I say. – For 24 hours your wishing me well – 364 days I’m in hell, Oh well. – Happy Birthday to me. – alone on my Birthday, – I’m going to Denny’s 10 times today – No Tip! it’s my birthday, so do what I say – How could you forget my birthday? – That’s really immature – Fuck you for forgetting my birthday – you didn’t do what I say – 24 hours no wishing well – now 365 days I’m in Hell, Oh well. – Happy Birthday to me. – Happy Birthday to me, Spank Me! – Oh well, Happy Birthday to me, – I can’t believe you forgot my birthday – it’s my birthday and you’re wrecking it – now it’s jsut like any other day – you didn’t do what I say – How could you forget my birthday? – That’s really immature…
